hmm. my first post. been thinking of whether i should create it at first all because of the controversy which arose recently. well. i decided to give it a try after all since promos are over.. didnt really have much time for myself and pple who are closer to me this past one and a half month.. was quite stressed by exams cos i didnt really do well for mid yrs and i dont want to get those kind of fantastic results anymore... didnt really cope very well. but thanks to my close friends around me.. who are constantly encouraging me and providing me with support.. really appreciated them even though i may not make it known.. =) i'm just glad that i managed to get on so smoothly.. give thanks to my Father in Heaven who is always there to provide guidance.. for all the wonderful things that He has put into my life.. it's so amazing what He does to our lives... =)

this is a space for my rants, thoughts and all those stored up feelings in me.. i admit. that i am a person who does not share so easily. or at least, i am not the kind who shows my feelings to others. pple always say that i am very outgoing and happy go lucky kind of girl.. but they're all wrong. i think a lot.. sometimes i am even scared by the fact that i think too deeply. other than sharing with God, i admit that i dont share much even with my closest friends... sometimes it's just too difficult. and sometimes you know pple cannot emphathise with you. disheartened feeling.. but i will try my best to let out what i feel from now on..

aftermath of promos. not satisfied with my performance. hope i will get what i deserved to get.. though i might not have studied very hard. but i know i have done my best on the spot... mental block! always happened to me. guessed it's because of my fear. my friend told me one wk before exam, "it's not cos you cant do it. it's because you tell yourself that you cant.. that's why you'll nv do well." it's my fear for math and physics that made me pessimistic. that created a barrier to my true self. the daring and risk taking me. took me years to realise that.. thanks chenghuat for letting me know my problem.. i'll try my best to overcome this fear. i can do it!

hm. think this will be all for tonight. just want to thank everyone who has helped me out when i am down. esp some of my classmates. you know who you are.. really very thankful for everything!! =) i am not one who express my gratitude to pple easily.. but deep down in my heart, there is always my most sincere appreciation.. =)