you know, uni isnt that fantastic after all. sure, you do get to meet many different people but sometimes they do get on your nerves. haha. as in "providing" mental torture. i feel that i've lost something. in fact, many things. i've lost the sense of security, a peaceful mind when i'm studying, the sense of warped humour and the tiniest bit of self confidence i used to have. all these in a short span of 3 months. haha. dont know if it's good or bad but the gradual development of a i-dont-bother-anymore attitude has definitely helped me to cheer up alittle when i feel down, stressed or demoralised. this explains my admitted failure in math. haha. what a contradiction when i once said i would strive to do my best. my so called pool of motivation always fail. haha.
i know some people will nag me after they see this post but i cant help it. hahaha. i can give a thorough explanation about my behavior from a completely different perspective and i think i am making logical sense. ok that is i feel that i dont really need a 1st class or 2nd honours to function well in the society.
2 weeks till the end. i really feel like changing to ARTS AND SOCIAL SCIENCES. finally realised how much of an essay person i am instead of doing technical and mechanical stuff. i love the freedom of expression i have when i am given ample time to think and pen down my thoughts and views. the feeling is really different when compared to being tied down to memorising hard facts and practise writing proofs. i dont like the feeling of being restrained to fixed boundaries.
i want to watch stardust again! =) fairytales make me happy. how random. haha.
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