little thoughts.

TEN things i want to say to TWELVE people

1. we had too much mutual understanding and tolerance towards each other that things suddenly seemed not to work out. the end might not be what we wanted but i am glad that you're going on fine.
2. you didnt realise the nasty comments that you used to give in the past. i've always swallowed them but it came to a point where things were getting out of hand. perhaps i have hurt you tremendously and i know i might not be given a chance to apologise personally but i hope time will erase your anger.
3. although you will be leaving soon, i will never forget all the help you have given me in various ways and the encouragements i needed for the past 2 years. all the best to you and i'm sure you'll make it great in future! i'll miss you dearly too.
4. the past one year was the most wonderful period i had in my whole school life. i'm glad to have found such good companions in you all. even though we will be going separate ways, all the wonderful memories that we've shared will always stay with me. nothing can replace the wild, fun bitching and serious times we spent together.
5. i'm glad that you will drop me a message occasionally to ask how i'm doing especially after reading some emotional entries i posted. thanks for forking out your precious bookout time to keep me company and also listening to my never ending complaints at times.
6. you're one of the best girlfriends i have so far. it's amazing to know how we both care for each other though we seldom meet up or even call for a chat. we'll see each other everyday till we get sick of each other come Aug 6th!
7. this year's the twelfth i've known you. we might have drifted apart since jc due to our ever busy schedules with ccas but you're always available when i need your help. dont be so pessimistic about your life now cos everything will turn out fine!
8. i feel that we've lost many common topics this year and never getting to move past this phase.
9. it might be because of my uptightness and loss of trust in you guys that cause me to hesitate in contacting you so often again. all i want to say is that all these are over and i do hope that we can nourish our friendships once again.
10. you may not get a chance to read this but i want you to know that all the moments we shared together will be deeply treasured. getting to know you has been the most special gift i've ever received. thanks a million for your tolerance and patience all these while!

sat in front of the comp for 2 hrs to think of what to type. i've always not been a person who's good with words. and what i hope most is that i will not lose those people that i treasure most deeply when workload gets heavier.